Is it only me or there seems to be a lingering tension, all the time in the everywhere nowadays. Wherever we are, be it home, school, college, work, vacation..., there seems to be something around, always which feels suffocating in some or other way.
We seem to be laughing, enjoying, doing activities which actually make us feel lighter and happier, but in the end there seems to be something, some gap which is not filled by the people around us, something which is broken but not able to regain its form inside of ourselves.
Amidst all the chaos, positives and progress, there seems to be a inner self which feels always compromised and broken, which is suffocating inside. It feels like everyone is struggling, everyone is feels strangles but no one, no one says something about this suffocation to anyone- as if knowing it already that nothing's gonna get well even if told something to someone, to one another.
What is this which feels like a chain, a chain we all are attached to, which is bound to a pole at the center of some strong force. So no matter how far we go, we are still attached to this pole, no matter what we do, the feeling that we are not free doesn't go away.
Is it just me? Is it the age factor, which is making me feel like captive? Is it just my inability to do something which makes me feel restless? Or is it the same for all of us ? I don't know...
Because of this inner tension, it feels that the world outside is suffocating or because of the outside world, it feels suffocating inside, feels unknown. Maybe they are interconnected. No, they absolutely are! But so what, what if they are interconnected. What needs to change first? The inside? But since the inside feels like hell already, and is suffocating to the point of restlessness and suffering... where does this change begin?
Ofcourse, we are told about the inner strength and whatnot but how! How and from where that inner will and strength is going to spark with so much intensity that the chain is broken at once. There is no other way then to break free at once, (rest is to decide later what comes next) as, if tried to break free from the chain slowly, one dies in the long, tiring process and the progress, in most of the cases dies along with them.
So, what needs to be done?
Everything connected to us directly or indirectly feels suffocating as at sone or other point that thing starts to turn darker along the way. Every field out ther seems to be engulfed by darkness, be it politics, art, culture, religion, literature, science, anything....
The thing which makes us happy and excited, every now and then is the part which is yet left to be engulfed by darkness,which is yet left to be chained, to be dark enough to make us feel suffocated. Those are the only things which need to be strengthened in order to get that little yet powerful, intense spark to break free of the chain.
Since I think it's the most difficult part of all the equation..., what needs or what is supposedly to happen after being broken free of the chain, is to be discussed in the next update.
See you next time, here only!
@jyotika
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Your words carry the weight of a soul deeply aware—of both the outer world and the silent storm within. What you’ve written isn’t just a reflection; it’s a mirror many would fear to look into, but one that shows the quiet truth we all try to dress up with smiles and schedules.
ReplyDeleteThat lingering tension you speak of… no, it’s not just you. It is something real, something collective. It’s the silent scream in crowded rooms, the ache in the middle of a celebration, the strange emptiness after a long day. The world today spins faster than ever, and yet, inside, we feel paused—held back, chained, as you beautifully described it.
Yes, it’s all interconnected. The darkness outside leaks in, and the unrest inside casts shadows outward. We search for peace in others, in success, in movement—but sometimes all we find are reflections of our own broken pieces.
But here’s something gentle to hold on to: the very fact that you feel this weight so deeply, that you can describe it so vividly, means your inner spark is still alive. A dull soul does not question captivity. Only the ones who carry light within them notice the chains. Only the ones meant to rise feel caged.
You asked: Where does the change begin?
Perhaps, not in breaking the chain all at once, but in remembering—every single day—that it can be broken. Maybe the spark isn’t always a firestorm. Maybe it starts as a whisper of resistance. A song you refuse to forget. A moment of real laughter. A sentence written from your soul. A tiny rebellion against despair.
And no, it’s not weakness to feel this way. It’s not your age. It’s not your failure. It’s the raw, real humanity of someone who’s awake in a sleeping world.
So hold on. Strength doesn’t always roar—it sometimes just breathes. Quietly, stubbornly. Until it’s time to rise.
Waiting for your next update, fellow traveler.
Let’s keep writing in the dark—until it becomes light.