Why do people feel empty?

July 2025; 2:52 am)

Humans are... what are we?

A species, believed to  be on higher level of hierarchy than others? A species which can build pretty much everything going as far as making AI and even elements of nature ? Despite all the development, understanding and growth, we still lag far behind in everything and seem to be getting emptier day by day. Isn't that ironic! 

We are developing technologies but can't develop ourselves! 

We are upgrading our lives but can't help feeling helpless and forlorn!

We are striving to be the better version of ourselves, to improve daily but are we !

Are we developing? Are we upgrading? Are we the better versions of us? 

How? In what way? 

In what respects are we becoming better as a nation, culture, society and most importantly, an individual?

The things to be known, are known to everyone. The values, the beliefs, goods and bads, rights and wrongs... as if what is left to know! The same story, the same concepts are repeated with more flowery or steel like words and the same life is led by all of us repeatedly; sometimes more passionately and other times indifferently. 

A few days ago, I was walking on the roadside and I saw a rat lying on the middle of the road. I thought it was dead but I don't know why I waited a few seconds as I was contemplating whether to do something or not(I wanted to) as it would be crushed by the vehicles passing by. Just then, I saw it move...it was alive! Now, I couldn't wait more and lifted it up to put it somewhere safe. It was injured quite badly, so much that I knew... even if I put it somewhere safe, it would die. I couldn't afford to treat it anyways, even if I could maybe I wouldn't. It struggled for a moment in my hands and then let it be as if accepting it's fate or guessing that I was helping. I put it beside the cement sacks alongside the road. There was nowhere safer than that. But almost few steps away a dog came by and sat there. It seemed to be watching me (idk.. why I felt that but it didn't seem to be interested in the rat, as if it won't harm it). I went my way after I put the rat in a shady place thinking and wishing that the dog won't harm it, maybe it won't even notice or something. 

Every time I walk down that path, I am remembered of the incident, the thought that prevails in my mind is that the dog didn't kill and eat it. I search for blood near the area every time and find none. Every time, I am compelled to believe that the rat is alive and healthy. 

But today, while I was coming back home, I saw a fat rat dead and ants going in it's mouth. I felt disgusted and came home. I was remembered of my rat and knew it was not it. But thinking about this, I am in general disgusted by rats, in fact not only rats, almost every creature especially reptiles. But that day, I saved it... maybe some part of me wanted to save some part of myself that's why or whatever. 

Today, while I am writing this, in my room, a mousekin(baby rat) is stuck on the glue trap along with a baby lizard...both helpless and struggling every now and then. Both will die tomorrow, when they are pulled apart from the glue trap. My head aches witnessing the scene and hearing the voices but it will all become normal when I see the glue trap empty tomorrow. This has been happening for three days now, in my home. 

I don't know how many times have I told my mum and dad, not to use this method. There are other ways too, to drive them away but who cares to listen! Who dares retort strongly! Who dares actually do something about all of the situation instead of feeling hurt and not doing anything about it! After all I too want the rats and lizards to go away from my house. Maybe, if that was not the case, I would have done something. But, that's not the case, I guess... 

I felt pain, disgusted, like I would vomit while writing all of this but everything is fine I guess. I would sleep in the same room, wakeup and everything will become normal. 

That's how everything is. This same thing is happening to all of us maybe. The rat is sometimes us and sometimes others. But these 'sometimes' are draining us little by little. They are sucking the life out of us. They are making us empty. 

We are developing... as a nation, as a society but as humans, we all know that in some or other way we are drained. Something is out there which is taking everything out of us. 

We all are grown ups, fully aware of what's good or bad, what's right or wrong, knowing the materialistic and whatnot pursuits of life.

 Despite that, what are we? Where are we going? Dreaming to live a fulfilling life, but in the end what are we pulled into ultimately! Isn't it emptiness!?

But the question still remains the same.....why do people feel empty? Let's think about this later....in another update on the same blog. Till then....I hope the people reading this are not living an empty life 😊Bye!

@jyotika

(27 July, 1:50 am)

What kind of world are we living in? A world full of everything... whatever one wishes for is there at the doorstep. One click away and you can enjoy but the life which is vanishing amidst all this... even if know, even if we realize, even if we feel suffocated because of that, we can't do anything... we are nothing in front of the pace with which everything seems to change! 

The more we realize this, the more empty it makes us! 

What kind of progress are we making? Going ahead in carrier, striving hard for success, taking a step more to gain a little more, trying a little harder to get a bit of something, sacrificing a lot to get the same later! Is this how are we supposed to be? 

The more we realize that this is becoming our reality or perhaps has already became one, the more empty it makes us!

Are we better than the previous generation?We know a lot more than them, we are far more open minded than them, we are trying to break free of the barriers they have always put us through, we are more willing to explore, to take chances, to strive for excellence, for our peace, but in the end...the peace we are looking for is nowhere to be seen.

The more we realize that unconsciously, somewhere deeply, our soul is still attached to something of the past, we want desperately but our 'practicality' collides with it, the more empty it makes us feel! 

What values we seek? What are the little things we are looking out for, in life? Those 'little things'... are they worth it? Worth what? What is the worth we are seeking? Is there a criteria for the 'worth' to fit the 'little things' into? 

The more we realize that we don't know any of this exactly, the more empty it makes us feel! 

We are seeking love, we are seeking acceptance, care, fortune, wealth, health, prosperity, peace, kindness, humanity, morals, support, success, togetherness, fun, satisfaction and everything; but the reality that in today's time seeking these 'little things' to fit the criteria of 'worth' is not worth it... is utterly disappointing.

The more we become aware of this, the more empty it makes us feel! 

@jyotika